OK – this sounds as if there may be great meaning behind the words but they are just words. The meaning inside that is created is something else. No matter the language they are spoken in, somehow we understand things from the words that create a conceptual world within. One that we can play with, reject, or use further when we think things related.

This conceptual world held my attention for a long time, trying to understand it, trying at times to talk about it. There seems to be all sorts of creations there, things that couldn’t be seen or heard, but some could be felt. I tried years ago to create a language from these concepts, trying to identify the landscapes within. It seemed my ideas were impossible to create and harder than my capacity to work through it all. I am still intrigued by the things that exist here and can get lost wandering through its connections and meanings. If I could spend time here but function expectedly in the real world then I would continue. For the time being it just exists, occasionally calling, with just the acknowledgement of myself that it exists. Thoughts all meander in here, connecting and changing, or indeed travelling across an already existing landscape. But for now I accept that I can neither understand it or perceive it clearly enough.

So between the ever expanding library on the outside, to the ever present world it gets experienced in is the person, considering which way to go, to really understand reality.

Science has been my friend throughout life, offering explanations based on what appears to be happening in the universe. Mathematics offering what seems to be an absolute framework that promises to hold securely the relationships between objective things. But missing is the important stuff, the people and their experiences, the beauty of art, music and the philosophies of subjective things.

If I look to the metaphysical then it promises a confusing world of explanations that border on fantasy, or are just fantastic, with seemingly no visible or logical means of navigating for the truth. The interesting concepts created by Seth, information created of, or through, Jane Roberts did perhaps expand my thinking of other possibilities. This was truly a drama unfolding, reading through the experiences of both her and Robert Butts. Up until the time that Jane died it continued to expand and I felt it was a serious challenge both in thinking and emotions for them both.

Then there are the transcripts of Elisha, through Mary Ennis, that appears to expand further along the same lines, but I am concerned by what truth can lie there. Especially when I read that Elisha states that the planets revolve clockwise as an explanation of a tendency for rotation. If that is wrong then what else is wrong with it.

There is still a redeeming quality to both of these characters however, they both insist on fallibility and push the responsibility back upon the person. They both also allow anyone to expand upon their imagination, or even mind, to open up to possibilities that may not readily be available in everyday thought. Both those qualities appeal to me more than any other. It does force me down a particular path. Whatever truth may come can only come from one source – that is yourself. So between the ever growing but confusing library and the world of the mind then action must be taken to find it out for yourself.

So my next steps in the journey are to find out for myself.

At this moment I do not know how but in a sense I feel that in some way I am already doing it.

It makes me wonder then, who exactly is the ‘You’ when you are creating? Because the reality seems exclusively ‘yours’. To also ‘create’ are you making something new or rearranging what is already there? Also, what is reality anyway? There must be a lot of distinct realities going around if you is an individual. Or is it the plural ‘you’, a kind of shared effort between reality engineers creating common or one particular reality? Another thought, is the reality exclusively mine or can I invite anyone into it?

If I am creating my own reality I want lessons in doing it properly. Mine is broken in places and I wouldn’t mind fixing it. Maybe a ‘Reality Creators 101′ might be in order – or say ‘Reality Creation for Dummies’ along with the Top 10 tips for usefulness.

My feeling is probably that ‘you’ is quite a complex subject and involves a lot to do with your personal perception of reality. I know that reality has a tendency to be a lot stranger and more wonderful than it first appears because I guess you get used to it being what it is already.

The creation bit really is an interesting thought, because in everything that could possibly exist it seems you are adding some more to it. I guess infinity doesn’t mind being added to but it does tend to still be infinity no matter what you add to it.

I wonder how these realities all hang out. Do they add together, are they are part of a greater reality or are they somehow all the same? What are they made of? What are they connected to ‘you’ with and how can it be personalised? Do you ever have the problem of somehow picking someone else’s reality one morning and have a really confusing day?

It does feel to be a beautiful idea in itself. That would possibly mean I can create just whatever I want, whenever I want and however I want. Something in it feels right, though I am sure it needs to be worked out.

Currently my reality isn’t all it could possibly be at the moment, there are things going on that are frustrating, sad, annoying and just plain confusing. Or is that just me? Am I creating all that no matter what? That brings on the biggest surprise of all, what a responsibility that all must be. No more being the victim if you are actually creating it. In fact, if you are being the victim in any sense then you must be creating it. Why would you want to do that? Maybe a bit of ‘victim experience’ is a good break to have from all this power that must be available.
It also means I cannot blame anyone else – for anything. Well – not unless I wanted to create that?

What about other people’s realities? How do they impact on yours? Do you share a reality in full or in part?

It is interesting that it isn’t ‘you create reality’, which you must do, but it is also not ‘you create your reality’, you own it somehow. It must belong to you. So what is this reality that is so unique to you. If indeed you are unique?

Is it possible too for reality not to exist? Or perhaps ‘you’ can exist with no reality?

Opposing this, how do you know reality is real? What does that mean and can it be proved?

I know there is a correspondence to this statement somewhere along the lines because we do actually change things. Which then results in things that we experience. So it seems obvious at that level. I use also my everyday experience of reality which although quite personal to me I guess does share a bit of crossover with many other people or I would seem quite mad. Or maybe not be seen at all if I think more about it.

A separation exists too. The reality is not you in a sense. You have created it so it exists as something you made. Is it a part of you or actually separate then.

Assuming too that realities are being changed – or more exact – created all the time then what happens to old ones. Where are all the realities yet to be? Is there an infinite set of realities? This draws my attention to time. There does seem to be an element of the present in that statement. I assume that it applies to now. Is it an eternal statement. Will I be creating reality in the next moment, have I always created it?

How would you prove this statement to be true or false?
Why would you bother?
Other than it sounding like it is one of the most important statements you can ever take on.

So where do you begin?

I guess I shall create a reality in which I am fully aware of everything that goes on in the reality and understand it all. Sounds a bit god-like and impossible doesn’t it?

But it’s MY reality! I can do what I like with it!

The problem is always at the beginning, what do you do to flesh out an idea and make it into something real. In the IT world you would be expected to create a detailed specification of what you want but often it isn’t people with that kind of experience that have the idea. So you need enough to be able to describe fully your idea to someone who can actually do the work, write the code, create the product and make it something you can sell.

Of course having an idea in your head is not enough. You need to at least know that it solves the problem that created it. You need to create your imaginary product in your mind and test it all out in real life. This is the most efficient place to make changes to it, anywhere later will cost you time and money. Now assuming you don’t have the capacity of a great inventor like Tesla then you need to make some notes and drawings. This is where the storyboarding comes in.

Now whatever you artistic skills are and thankfully it doesn’t matter when you do this you need to draw how the product will be used. You draw up each function it performs and put in just enough to spark the imagine of seeing it for real. Even if you have to draw a little stick-man operating or using the product it will help you see its use more clearly.

There may be a number of ways that the product is used so for each one you can think of draw little pictures of how it will look. When you go through a function or action with it you can use a comic book like style to show each of the steps. If you have many pictures of certain aspects of the product then you can reuse them as you think of how the product will be interacted with. All this helps your cognitive functions analyse and imagine all the pieces that are necessary for the product to work.

I know that film walkthroughs are done this way, at least showing the ingredients of each action as the idea is fleshed out. Of course it is so simple and quick to change, rearrange, throw out and add to the story line this way you can see the film being someone using your product.

The next thing is that once you have thrown every problem and possible function at your product on paper you will then want someone to prototype it. Well the sketches will help for this too. If you are able to it will give you plenty of information for writing a specification. At least it will give you enough to know what you are asking for should you go online to a freelancing auction or service provider. The one thing that will always save you time, money and communication problems is having as complete a specification as possible when approaching a service provider. You could possible even just use the sketches or storyboard as the means of describing what you want and have the service provider help you get round any technical issues.

Creating a storyboard will help you make your idea a reality by helping your imagination flow in creating it, forcing you to consider it fully for any issues it might have and ease the communication you need in telling someone else what you need to create the idea into a prototype.

I did find a number of sites that describe this method though any search for ‘storyboarding prototyping’ should bring up more than enough background info.
http://projects.staffs.ac.uk/suniwe/project/prototypeuserinterface.html
http://webzone.k3.mah.se/k3jolo/Sketching/sk31.htm
http://www.usabilitybok.org/methods/storyboard

Pulling back, if there is an infinite of things, then everything within it is real. Everything must be as real as each other. Anything that imagine not to be real therefore must be. Every thought, every perception whether seen or imagined must be in fact real.

Another implication is of connectivity. Everything is connected to everything else. If anything could be taken away then the whole thing could not exist. Everything has to be. Everything thing has a direct, absolute and real effect on everything else.

So take it to an extreme which doesn’t make sense at the moment, every thought or imagination must have an effect upon everything else.

I am aware of the theories of multiverses and probabilities within the fringes of science but it is certainly hard to visualise every possibility splitting up into its components. It only seems to be perceived by the capacity of thought anyway. Every moment having an infinite number of possibilities. There must be something of a filter to be able to create anything.

Another thought that makes this interesting is where if everything exists then the beauty of mathematics will collapse it into a singular framework. Its beauty has been in its ability to describe and prove itself. A mathematically proof is a thing that proves a singular result, loosely speaking, and collapses probabilities down to something of a framework. Is it possible to ever have 1+1=3? So does this collapse everything into a singular structured framework or is there a possibility that in some respects this can exist?

What I need is real, actual, current experience in a framework that specifically for me will enable the most effective understanding.

Where would I start?

I must admit to myself that intellectually I have no idea of where to start – I need more than that.

So if I trust that life is created in a fashion that enables the ‘I’ that I sense to be able to achieve its objectives then should it not work. I need to initiate this journey somehow, fully trusting that it is not a wasteful or misdirected one. Maybe the journey itself does not have a destination? But it must have a direction toward more understanding of myself and the universe in which I live.

I ask of the universe, of whatever it consists of to direct and formulate this journey. In this statement is the trust that however far I can define the ultimate reality of God, the universe, or indeed myself, that it would not have any inclination to misguide me. If this has a direction then in that direction I must place my request. To know, experience, to understand the truth from wherever I am here.

This perfect universe, that intellectually must contain everything, must contain the very thing I am trying to implore. In that context it is then that very thing that is providing within me this imploration. This desire must stem from within it and must therefore have an answer.

I am aware that this may not all exist in what I perceive, it may not require the intellect or reason, it may not be anything that I at this present moment understand. But it must be, or these words will never have been written.

So it begins now.

It must be all accessible, it exists already. I must trust, accept and imagine that this journey has begun.