Deciding to look outward and stop navel gazing I look at my footprint in the world, thinking in terms of what I would leave behind if I decided to pass on – It looks like I slipped and fell!
What an ugly blog!
I should take a screenshot of it to remind myself of how it used to look at some time in the future when it is all shiny and fresh and full of invigorating fresh new ideas. A self important thought I admit – one that has the pretence of an ugly duckling with the gift of insight.
I ask myself now, what on earth was I doing? Why all this ….. Well, let’s think of better metaphors. I did think I was doing the right thing at the time I guess. I thought I was doing something worthwhile. I found however I could make the world a better and more wonderful place by not doing it in the first place.
Though sometimes people do get it right, if at first you don’t succeed, try and try again. Some also say the definition of insanity is to keep on doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. So what is it to be. I would say insanity is a better frame of mind than the ones I have survived at times.
Let’s refresh this and see where it goes…